draining's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- from The Diary of a Teenage Girl by Phoebe Gloeckner I don't remember being born. I was a very ugly child. My appearance has not improved so I suppose it was a lucky break when he was attracted to my youthfulness... In all matter-of-factuality, it happened like this: A couple of nights later Mom decided she didn't want to go to a nightclub with Monroe (as she had planned) to see some singing cowboys. She said, "Why don't you take Minnie?" He says, "Well, kid, whadya think? You want to go out on the town with me? Your mom's standing me up!" ''Well, okay...," I said, with little enthusiasm. Of course I had home work but so the fuck what. I wanted to go, so I did and of course I was served a drink or two because I am so mature-looking. And Monroe always seems to drink under such circumstances... He was feeling my tits but I kept interrupting him to stumble over to the ladies' room. He was saying, "Oh look you're giving me a hard-on oh look you're givingmeahardon." Then he put my hand down his pants but it didn't feel too hard to me. It had soft skin. I don't know what I expected but I guess flesh can never be realy hard, like Formica or wood, because it is, afteer all, flesh. I told him I wanted him to fuck me and he said areyoucrazyohgodlookyou'regivingmeahardon. I said I really mean it I really want you to fuck me. I was laughing and it seemed ridiculous. I didn't even know if I was serious but it was a funny game and I was totally drunk... We got into his car and we were both very drunk and he looks at me and says, "I can't believe you want me to fuck you. Do you really want me to fuck you?" "None of your fucking business!" I laughed, and he said, "You really DO want me to fuck you, don't you? I can't believe it...You really fuckin' want me to fuckin' fuck you." I laughed again but I wasn't sure whether I wanted him or anyone else to fuck me but I as afraid to pass up the chance because I might never get another... we drove towards my house... I had that cold chill gripping my heart and my teeth started chattering like I was freezing or scared. * * * * * * I got so drunk another night that I almost drowned in the bathtub. 2:45 a.m. - 2006-04-20 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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